Facing my own weakness in teaching 1

During the training at ECC - at a language school, my weaknesses are revealed.  There are some issues that hinder efficient teaching and learning in my classroom.
1. Uncontrolled  presentation of passion. Ironically, my eagerness to communicate SS blinds me during a lesson. I tend to be beside myself when  I'm nervous or having too much fun.
2. Limitation for image memorization. I cannot learn from visual input. Logic, abstraction, and language are tools for me when I acquire skills and knowledge. I am incapable of see what's going on in front of me without thinking, and imitate what I see (or hear) without analyzing or occupied with other thoughts. To be present is what I  lack. There are some teaching skills that can be best  learned seeing and imitating and makes them a  routine. Such as the procedure of a lesson.
3. Carelessness and restlessness . I neglect paying attention to what my lesson appear to be. I don't care much for outfit and make-up I wear. WB writing is always messy. My talk is not smooth and doesn't sounds confident. I don't look calm as the way I move is absent minded. I don't hold a picture when SS have to look at it. SS will think that my teaching is not well prepared and I'm not a qualified teacher.

In class, i don't do what SS want me to do but  what I want to do.